Monday, October 30, 2006 @10:39 AM
met up with her today at 11.30pm.. the amazing thing is she behaved as if nothing has happened.. although thru out the day, she slapped my chest dunno how many times.. and the fucking thing is she goes telling everything to her mother.. and the worst thing is, they made fun of the whole fucking conversation yesterday..
something like "u tell me how long are u going to endure him??" and before she even answer, i begin to talk non-stop.. well a quarrel is always like this.. 1 party talking, the other shut up.. if both talk at the same time which is highly impossible, it means game over! but the both of them actually says thats funny.. what fucking meaning is this? does it means what i tell her yesterday are mainly bullshit?
and she was telling me that she thinks that that cheebye ke leng kia is useful to her.. her mother always ask him to fix this fix that.. now she goes telling her mother that i dun like the fact that his allowed in her house and yet her parents welcomed him so damn fucking much.. and know what her mother says? she says ok, den what does bk know what to do? she told her that im good at computer.. so it means what? it just simply meaning, im useful as well.. so does it means that she's using me as well?
i seriously dunno how to handle this relationship now.. its toiling me so much that i can't even breathe.. in my opinion, i really want to be with her if that motherfucker gets out of her life.. but that motherfucker has no fucking common sense.. i seriously dunno how his parents brought him up.. must be the lack of family love that caused him to be such a motherfucker.. dunno what kind of fucking parents he has..
and just now, he still goes and msg and call my gf.. keep telling her I LOVE YOU.. all these and that.. i mean how lame can he goes? seriously speaking man.. one fine day when i break up with my gf.. it means i need not give her anymore face.. im gonna whack this fucking ke leng kia.. cos he has really boiled the heat in my body to the max.. i've never hate someone that much before.. to be even more blunt, i need to whack him so that he can wake up.. or in that manner, he will never cause hurt to another girl who had another boyfriend.. motherfucking cheebye.. u better watch your fucking black ass..
Sunday, October 29, 2006 @7:17 PM
kan ni na buey chao chee bye fucking ke leng kia!!!! thanks to your intervence again, she tried to break off with me.. but so sorry.. u are no fucking cheebye match for me.. first, i got hell lots of money den u.. u can never give a woman any fucking happiness.. u know? all u can give is hurt them, use them and fuck them!! i've never seen a more successful bastard den u..
well, she met up with this motherfucking ke leng kia yesterday cos she needed someone to help her wash her fish tank.. reason? giving the fact that this bastard is the one who set up the whole fish tank for her so no one knows better den him.. ok nvm.. after which they went to elias mall to have their dinner.. and u know what? she foot the bill again!! tell me guys! how can a guy be so useless? expecting girls to pay for them every fucking single time? he really damn xia suey all the guys in this world.. and when im out with her, i tried to snatch the fucking bill everytime.. and yet now she is paying for him? which means indirectly, i am the fucking stupid person paying for the ke leng kia!! even my cigarettes that i gave her, she also shared with him.. so now what? dang lim pei si de?
so she called me at around 1am yesterday to chat.. saying she missed me all these.. ain't she enjoying her fucking sweet time with the ke leng kia? and u still dare say u missed me? also nvm.. so i began to show her my attitude on the phone.. and all she did is to shout back at me.. that is so fucking hurting.. when im not in the fucking wrong, im being fucked!!
to cut a long conversation short, i told her what i've just type.. after which, she got so pissed off that she say "ok fine, if talking would spark off a quarrel, the next time dun talk! if paying for me would make u feel like u paying for him, the next time we dun eat together!" now again, she's quarrelling with me over that motherfucker.. i dunno when but i shouted ok fine, FORGET IT! and the conversation was off..
after i finished work, she called me on my mobile again saying all those sarcastic remarks like sms is expensive and she's too tired to even bother to reply.. just wanted to call and get it over and done with.. i think she's bloody used to the fact that i'm always the one apologising to her.. until yesterday i couldn't tahan anymore and flared everything out.. ni na bei.. lao hu bu fa huey, ni ba lim pei dang bing mao???
everytime that fucker got pissed off, frustrated or whatever shit, she will try her very best to pacify her.. as for me? all she knows is to shout back at me for getting so pissed off?? oh great, now i'm even wondering if she's 2-timing me? and she's telling me that why did she quarrel with that motherfucker? cos there's a conflict of interest.. she dunwan to leave me and yet the ke leng kia wants her to do so.. thats why.. but now isn't she and me having a conflict of interest as well? so she's planning to leave the both of us to stop all these shit.. great, im your bf and yet u still choose to leave.. he's your friend, and u gave in so much to him.. thanks lehx..
the good thing is after everything is done, she tried to keep me.. and said that she will never ever contact that motherfucker again.. ok say is say.. lets see about this..
cos i know i can do without her at any point of the time.. so FUCK IT!
Saturday, October 28, 2006 @1:35 PM
wah lau eh.. really bth her liaox lahx.. although in my heart, i know i still and do love her.. lets put 100% as a mark.. it will be around 70% for now.. but that day she was telling me that we were incompatible.. den the reason was i treat her too good..
at that moment was what the fuck!??!? ok den nvm.. she say she dun like alot of things about me.. but she dunwan to tell me, saying she dunwan me to change.. cos she like the way i am now.. den why in the hell tell me in the first place and left me pondering the whole night? ok nvm.. den she say we somehow got communication problem.. saying what she says, i dun understand.. and what i say, she dun understand.. ok den nvm..
serious, i do love her lots but i dun mind breaking up.. at any point of the time.. there's still this ke leng kia behind trying some hanky panky stuff.. ok also nvm.. so i tell her that maybe she should really serious consider about this relationship.. and den i heard techno.. she slam the phone down.. after which tried calling her phone a few times, she shut it off.. fine! after which i called her house.. kena fucked by her again.. and out of frustration, i also put down the phone which i regretted later..
cos pple who know me well should know that i very soft-hearted towards gf one de.. in the end i send her 1 msg which she didn't even bother to read.. till the next day, i called her at 1.30pm and she finally picked up.. heng nothing goes wrong..
but really bth.. i always thought sheryl was the worst girlfriend i've ever got.. annabelle too.. but it turns out that she seems to have more problems den the both of them.. except she treat me real good.. hahax.. but the problems is so much i cannot tahan.. arghx.. almost every now and den i will question myself : "how the fucking hell did i get myself into this fucking situation?" wondering if that day i tell her i got a girlfriend, would things be so much different?? i dunno.. sighx..
