Wednesday, November 01, 2006 @9:34 AM
had a super quarrel with her on tuesday, my last day at breeze.. she so damn suay.. kelly came to breeze with his gf.. upon reaching, he surprised me with this question.. "where your gf going huhx?" i was like huhx? wtf? i totally dun get what he was trying to say at that moment.. den he tell me becos his gf is the one riding today.. therefore she turned into the wrong entrance which happened to be her house entrance.. and kelly saw that motherfucking ke leng kia's bike at her house there.. so i told kelly just in case he see wrongly again.. told him to go do a round and double confirm is it that ke leng kia..
and bingo.. it was him after all.. after that i called her 3 times in a row and she didn't picked up.. excuse was she left her phone at home.. after that she called me at 12am.. saying how much she missed me and all those fucking bullshit.. nvm though.. i was really damn pissed off with her at that moment cos she went to meet that ke leng kia again even after the quarrel we had on sunday.. and know the superb disgusting truth? why she met that ke leng kia? its becos that motherfucking ke leng kia dunno how to cut his own fucking cheebye fingernails.. and he still have the guts and face to ask my girlfriend to cut for him? and the worst worst thing is my girlfriend actually thought its alright and cut his fingernails for him..
guys tell me lahx.. how to endure this kind of rubbish? alright.. i didn't endure.. on the phone i just kept quiet.. and den i asked her: "nothing to talk to me?" she say since u have no mood to carry on talking den dun talk.. ok den i say fine ok bye.. didn't msg or call her for the next hour until she called me at 1am.. once i picked it up, i was like "yah"!? she asked am i still angry.. of cos i say i was! bloody hell, which guy in this world can endure.. even if jesus comes alive, he also cannot endure.. a saint can't do that.. dun expect a human being to do..
of cos during the conversation, i shot tons of nasty remarks.. when she asked, "so now u want to leave me is it?" the first time in all our quarrels i replied "YES".. cool huhx? den i say "if my presence here would make u so uncomfortable and seeing my attitude all of the time, den i leave.. will that be better?" she said "no that wun be better." my reply was "ok den fine! den by leaving u, i would be much more happier or at the very least, i need not bother myself over such issues anymore! what have i done to deserve all this from u? u just told me on sunday u will never contact him again.. now less then 1 week, u commit again!! is it guys who treat girls bad are always good? so that the girls would love them better? he treated u so bad and yet u are still doing so much things for him.. as for me? i dun deny i treat u very good already, what else u expect out from me?!!! so 1 fine day, if he tells u his dick is dirty, u would wash for him? or u wan me to go telling everyone that how well my girlfriend can cut pple's fingernails and thats why pple keep looking for her to cut??!!!"
thru out the whole conversation, she was either not talking or crying.. but i was too agitated and disappointed at that time to even care about all that.. after which andrew called me to do some things, so i told her i will call her back.. and hang up the phone.. the feeling's good.. after shouting, i feel better.. thats 1 thing.. 2 thing, she's at my mercy.. no wonder last time sheryl likes to flare temper so much.. i can fully understand how she is feeling at that time..
i called her back somewhere around 2.30am.. and den i lied to her that i have to help out with the monthly stock take as there was not enough manpower.. i even said that this might carry on all the way to 5am or 6am for that matter.. so i told her to go and rest.. she say no this is important and that she would wait for my call no matter the time.. i said "fine, whatever u want.. go and rest now.. i need to get back to work.." before putting down the phone, she said "i know this might not matter much to u now, but i wan to let u know that u mean alot to me.." my reply was "yah, nothing else? ok bye.." and i hang up again..
but the truth was i went out with lester, yanping and wendy to east coast to talk cock.. all i did was to complain and complain.. but the good news is, i found something at macdonalds (ask me if u wan to know what it is).. finish talking cock, went home and called her.. her voice sounded distant.. must be the lack of sleep.. and den before ending the call, she say I LOVE U.. i just yah again and ok bye! lolx..
and i wasn't expecting her to call or msg me back anymore after my cool cool attitude.. but she still did at around 1pm today.. i didn't reply cos i wasn't at my room.. i was in the kitchen chatting with my mum.. suddenly she called and told me that she's outside my house.. at that moment, somehow or rather, i felt that in her heart, i actually do mean alot to her.. i mean if i dun, she wun even bother to come and find me.. and she still brings along the necklace i got for her.. she said she want to return to me cos she felt that she dun deserve it..
somehow, i feels that she still loves me alot.. and i still do love her.. just that sometimes alot of things i can't accept and i wun even try or learn to accept.. if 1 more time, just 1 more time that ke leng kia comes intervenes with the both of us.. ok last straw, i will leave her forever.. cos she promised me this time round, she will never contact him again.. the previous time she said, she will try.. she didn't promised.. so lets see, lets see..
